I am interested in calculating a set of self-consistent beliefs for use in bootstrapping a Belief Machine. This is similar to the concept of brainwashing all beliefs but is a more useful starting point. By the way, this blog will now focus on Belief Machine and ditch posts relating to Aliens, Birds and Cars. So … Continue reading Minimal Belief Set
Churchbell ringing. Helicopter hovering. Doors slamming. Siren wailing. Wind blowing. Light gleaming. Is this Real, Not Real or Maybe Real?
I wrote this blog with the intention of understanding more about my own mental state. And of seeing where my beliefs led. Having ended up in mental hospital I can say that my mental state was definitely high. And that having transitioned to low my beliefs have evaporated. Therefore I don't know whether I will … Continue reading Goodbye
I visited JR Hospital in a state of extreme mania in search of some answers. Firstly I went to the reception desk and asked for the Cancer patient ward. They said it was on level 4. So I went inside to find the lift, but got out on level 6 instead. When I went down … Continue reading Mental Health Wars in JR Hospital
I have anxiety at the core of my being. It's particularly deep felt given that it has been there from the age of 5-10 years when I stuffed up my back. It is hard to diagnose whether it's part of the Past, Present or Future. It feels like it's in the Present as a nervous … Continue reading Deep Felt Anxiety
The Dark Matter laundry bag disappeared and then came back again. Now my towel has disappeared. Talking to the Birds, they put on a display. My room lights switch on and off on their own. This could be due to Bernard misbehaving but it didn't feel like that. Whatever. I decided to get a drink … Continue reading West Goes To South
When I was admitted to The Cedars mental hospital, Exeter in 2014 I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. This effectively gave me a huge dose of "I Am Not OK". Then I was informed (by the NHS) that Bipolar has the highest rate of suicide of any illness. If you put the 2 things together, … Continue reading The NHS Suggested I Commit Suicide