I Want To Be Impulsive

Normally people think of being impulsive as a good thing. However, once you’ve been diagnosed with an episode of mania, you will have experienced enough impulsive behaviour to last a lifetime.

The trouble is that if you ask me what I want, you will get an impulsive answer. But this is only what a part of me wants and is the answer I think you want to hear. What I actually want is to be more measured; to go for the impulsive answer once in a while but not every time.

So how do I change my behaviour? I’m not sure I can. Not sure I have a choice. Could this be a deterministic universe after all?

I’m scared. Scared of what will happen to me once my ability to earn money runs out. Impulsiveness is just a distraction.

Yet the Buddhist in me says I should live in the present and not worry about the future. Why can’t I put that into effect?

Answers on a postcard please.

New year’s resolution: stop worrying about the future.

Is this the same thing as Buddha saying one should dispense with one’s self?

2 thoughts on “I Want To Be Impulsive

  1. I think a lot of philosophical vibes can be embedded in any answer to your question, but like buddha said -GREED, ANGER, IGNORANCE can be converted into -GENEROSITY, COMPASSION, WISDOM by mindfulness, but it can only be done if you are ready to burn your candles on both the ends.
    Impulsiveness is common a common thing among the common folks nowadays and that’s largely because the kind of work culture and lifestyle we follow hardly spares us the time for ourself. But I think it should be our perpetual habit to be more cautious than before.

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