If I can’t drop my self (ego) then at least I can seek to improve it. I currently suffer daily with depression or mania and face many fears and hot thoughts. I am slowly working through them all with CBT but I hope that writing this blog will also help; the cathartic effect.
I am desperately ill and want to get better. That’s half the battle, unless you believe Buddha and it’s the desire that creates the suffering; perhaps I should learn to live with it.
At the moment this is a case of “I Am Not OK”. It’s definitely worse in the mornings. Contrast that with my earlier statement of “I Am OK”.